Distractions of Mr. Why

There is no comfort in the steps I make,

But for the tug of the One who called me in the beginning.

What once was is now lost,

A life spent and toiled.

The fellowship found has now fled,

Actions shadowed by their beliefs.

The walk, committed from the beginning,

Moves forward at the beckoning.

My spirit is rocked by the fleeing footsteps,

They run to the complacent lies of their reality.

Comfort is not found for them in my pain,

They fall silent.

My choice casts fear on their walk,

I push forward seeking the Light.

His feet I place my fears, in Him I trust my future.

There is innocence in my silence.

 

"Now prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me." Job 38:3

Long ago, many questions swam through my mind. The why's and what's dominated my thoughts. Abandoned and foggy was my walk that was so very clear before. I too began to question God and what he was doing. I could relate to Job in this area. At the end of his suffering, after losing loved ones, wealth and friends; he began to question God as as if he had equal footing with the master. God indeed threw questions back to overwhelm Job and force him back to submission and restore his proper role as the Lord's servant.

So there I stood feeling all sorry for myself and waited for my Fathers answer. So soft His response, "Why do you ask why, when you should be asking how. I cannot use you for My Kingdom if you are always looking back..." My mind did a double take, then exploded. Wow.....I was so hung up on why, that My Father could not use me.

Here I stand, many months later,better for burying the why and putting on my How outfit. I wish I could say I don't ask why, because on occasion I will embrace that easy question. I, however,do not stay on the why because I want the How to be in control.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." Psalm 51:10

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Jehovah Nissi

The battle rages

My strength to the left and right

My banner The Lord

 

The battle cry of the soul goes dimmer in the silence. The lack of support drains the emotional bucket bleeding it dry. Each person needs support as the battle rages. The arms grow weak, the mind is weary as the enemy attacks. Accountability and Hope is given to us on the left and right. Just as Aaron and Hur set Moses down and lifted his arms when he could no longer do it, we need this in our life. We have all seen it haven't we. A brother or sister struggles through there battle, giving it there all..are they alone? Do we step up and lift of them arms....Stand in the gap when they cannot. Our hope is in our support and courage that God gives to us for others. Do we hide this gift....it is painful to support the weak, but it is necessary. It is what He died for.....that brother hurting is just as important as you are to Our God.

 

---"The Lord is My Banner". Exodus 17:8-16

 

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Blank canvas

Today is not tomorrow,

It is not yesterday.

Today is an empty canvas,

Full of Wondrous Amazement!

 

The tools given to each:

What can....

What will...

Paint the land with what is given.

 

Colors collide with reality,

Broad the strokes,

The color so vibrant.

Breathe in the Beauty...

 

Arms open wide,

Direct the actions of my Heart,

Use your servant..

I am yours.

 

"And I will delight myself in Your commandments, which I love." Psalm 119:47

I take delight in seeking the One who made me, saved me, and guides me. My delight is a deliberate act and not a burden. Each day is a blank canvas where God asks me to step out on Faith. Every moment begins with that step forward, some steps are painful, but others are natural. Does God take the same delight in my action if it is not on faith. Does my aroma give Him pleasure when my actions are simple? I will not fear tomorrow because my focus is on not today, but the very moment. My faith will take me to Him...

"And Peter answered Him and said,'Lord if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.' So He said, 'Come'....." Matthew 14:28-29

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Unfinished Business

To here is the call, The gentle breeze speaks. Consuming the heavy past, Breathing Hope for tomorrow. Ragged we stand gazing off, False hope in the comfort of the past. Here we are, there we were, Both one in the the same..... He wants us in the now, No preparation required for the meeting. Dirty and shackled He wants us, Ready to cleanse when asked.... Still a long way off He sees us, The journey is in the now. The burden He lifts, Releasing yesterday...cleansing today. "Moses said to the people, 'Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord......Then the Lord said to Moses, 'Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on." Exodus 14:13, 15 In my journey I have two primary objectives; (1) Stand still to hear the call and (2) Move on.... I have to stand still and listen to His promise and direction, once I have received that promise I must move forward to allow for the blessing to happen. With God at your side, the Journey is endless and rewarding.

Tomorrow is not yesterday

The pains of sorrow fight the light, Flickering the past into the shadows. The present is dim despite the brightness of tomorrow, Shadows swaying to hope, visions distorted. Only the One knows the path to Home, The flame is awakened by the Father. Teaching from history to revive the future, Calling into the darkness "Your Hope is here" Soft and smooth is the whisper, Tickling the roots to grow deep within. The walk is tedious and treacherous, The mirage matures in its Faith. "I have prayed for you..." Passions stir that once were lost, Ministering to the belief of Majesty. The patchwork becomes the badge. "But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith will not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.". Luke 22:32 There is always a moment of reflection before going forward to the unknown. A pause in time when we meet Christ,that Kyros, when the world stops and you speak to your Savior face to face. The questions leave and you are blanketed with His grace. Fueling the strength to walk forward,to do what is asked without question. He will provide the companions for your journey,for you are not alone. What is given is sufficient for today and tomorrow. The walk begins.....

The Mess

I am in the mess
Emptiness covers the Hope
Painfully I walk

The toughest part of The Mess in is believing that you are valuable enough to get out or worth the time. Doubt creeps into our thoughts and our hopes fade. Tomorrow seems lost and forgotten like a faded memory. The reality is that you are valued and needed. The hope that seems lost just sits at His feet. He is waiting for you to release the burden and he can replace it with His love.

The Mess is not required to be cleaned before it is presented to the Master.

Return to Me

The lights grow dim.
Step by step the path it fades.
The present becomes blurred with the past,
While the future tells lies.

The focus that once was,
Becomes a want of the now.
Confusion strangles the hope.
Chaos becomes my master.

From the darkness It comes,
Out of the silence It vibrates.
Will I look for the Freedom,
The beauty of the the Passion!

What a roller coaster ride this life is! The chaos of the now always seems to separate us from our true goal. It is so easy to see the pit before and after, but so difficult to see the pit while you are in it and trying to get out. The most amazing aspect of our relationship with our Father is His unconditional love for us. It is unending....it is withstanding and forever. I draw hope on the fact that I walk around with a tilted Halo, that I fall short of His love. But I try everyday because I know he stands there saying "Return to Me....and I will return to you."--Zechariah 1:3